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Changes, chances, choices

I received some news today about my job that I was expecting would come at some point or other, but wasn’t sure exactly when. As it turns out, the changes that I’d anticipated will be happening sooner rather than later. Without going into great detail, as of April I’ll have some more free time – 5 hours a week, to be exact. Though I’m a bit anxious about the financial impact this will have on our budget, I’m actually rather excited about the possibilities that this change opens up for me.

Increasingly I feel as though I want to throw myself into doing more of what I love – blogging and writing – but there are only so many hours in the day. Now with what will probably amount to a whole extra day off every week, I suddenly have a chance to do just that. The possibilities are exciting!

Sometimes I wonder if we need someone or something bigger than us to come along and give us a gentle kick in the butt to get us up and doing what we’re supposed to be doing. I started off intending to be in this very position – that is, working at my current job for somewhere around three days per week – but for various reasons ended up at four days per week, and grew rather comfortable with the increased income. The result was that I let go, a bit, of some of the dreams I had since we first started talking a year and a half ago about making a choice to change our lifestyle. Now it seems I’m being gently nudged back onto the path I’d originally chosen.

When I think about the future, the anxiety and discomfort is tempered by a bubbling up sense of excitement and possibility that threatens to take over and push out the fears.

Changes, chances, choices. It’s all a matter of perspective.

Laurel Storey, CZT – Certified Zentangle Teacher. Writer, reader, tangler, iPhoneographer, cat herder, learner of French and Italian, crocheter, needle felter, on-and-off politics junkie, 80s music trivia freak, ongoing work in progress.